Shunned Without Even the Chance to Try

So, for the past couple of months I've been thinking about my next move after JET. What I had wanted to do for soooo long (years really), was quickly and uniformly snatched up form me when I read the requirements and found out that I was too "old." Never had I even thought of that as a hindrance. My age?! Wow, that was a kick into reality. It makes me wonder and look back on my moves in life thus far. But if I had to go back I wouldn't change a thing, so that just means I was never destined to get that award. But realizing this is sooo surreal.

D, I love you so much. I know we're going through some tough times, but we have to hold on! There's a reason why everything in our lives seem to be crazy. If you think about it, we're defying statistics and going against every grain in our line. Of course it won't be easy. So, hold on and let's find solace in each other so that we can keep kai-la together. I love you so much.